i have written this new journal like 2 or 3 times and something always happens that keeps it from getting posted!! >:C i figure that since im sick today nothing will ''happen'' to keep me from finnishing. i have been wanting to post a new journal since september... im sorry i left such a grim and angsty journal for so long... ):

anyways guys how have you been?? (:
me? i have been doing better... im pretty much settled in here already... it already feels normal and my old house and my old life seem like the old shell of something that is not part of me anymore but was definately there and gave me the shape i have right now...i want to paint cicadas...
pretty much everything is cool here... i miss the beach and the peace but i get all the socialness and events! (went to a couple of concerts already : D )so yeah i like it here... sweet water fish will never become seafish.. its not natural... maybe its because they shouldnt have to... who knows?
as i said everything is cool except for school... i could say that school is solitary form of mind sapping, soul consuming, madness inducing form of stressfull academic 5-day torture.... but its not ALWAYS like that... im still trying to make good friends but god knows i have trust issues and i am as weird as a comet... also im a lazy b**ch on everything school related

adaptability people: the hability to make the best and adapt to any circumstance, the key of evolution and survival. assuming that adversity is either non-existen or simply just a concealed opportunity... what is yout opinion? do you believe in it? are you adaptable?

NOW for something informative! for the few kind souls who are following ''abaddon meets mark'' im sorry for the delay D: i promise i havent given up on it yet! im just polishing some uuhhh... details because a certain person on it was acting up difficult... i promise as soon as i get that down i will continue!!
there is so much stuff i am ''doing'' its hard to organize myself O:

i was tagged by and someone else :V
(1). Publica estas normas/show this rules
(2). Cada persona tageada debe colocar 10 cosas acerca de ellos mismos en su Journal./each
tagged person must write down 10 things about themselves in their journal
(3). Al final tienes que elegir 8 personas para tagear y publicar sus iconos./at the end
you must pick 8 person to tagg and show their icons
(4). Ir a la página y enviar un mensaje avisando a quienes tageaste./go to their page
and let them know they have been tagged
(5). NO tagear de vuelta./no tagging back

1-i dont look it but im actually a very sensitive person and i am easily moved to tears...of course that i would never let you know that ;D
2-i have a thing for melancholic sounding songs...
3-more than once i have wondered if i have a personality disorder...
4-i am slightly allergic to cats
5-if im not feeling good i never tell anybody unless i feel like im going to die any instant
6-i was once hit on by a lesbian because i wore too much rainbow colored things... i still feel bad for the confusion
7-my biggest fear is to die without acomoplishing my goals
8-i am obscenely ecologic...
9-if i were to choose between dying or loosing my hands i wouldnt know what to do
10-although i have a hideous singing voice sometimes i think about learning to sing opera...

hadnt done one of this for a while :V
i think thats it guys i know that as soon as i hit the -submit- button i will remember all the other things i wanted to talk about heheh...

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soooooo guess who is sitting at her aunts house while she can move in to her new home?

since i arrived to my grandmas home in sinaloa (currently in guadalajara)i always figured my next journal entry would be from a starbucks or something but no...

im sitting here at my grandmas house (tecnically my aunts house since grandma passed away a long time ago...)... never really liked it here i dont want to stay here much longer... im sick of carrying lugagge and having to be polite and nice to whoevers house we are... and im not used to having so much little kids around >___> i love to hang out with my older cousins and all but they are all guys and i could use some girl time right now...

god unpacking in my old home was the bizarrest thing ever... my mind cant quite digest it yet... somehow everything seemed the same yet so different... all the old buildings the streets everything that was there 5 years ago is still there now!... a part of my mind tells me that shouldnt be... a part of my mind feels welcome and confident to adapt to something that is actually not new... and a part of my mind goes GOOOOOOOOOOOOOD this is weird and the rest just follow... its just so weird you know? i almost felt like 5 years just went *POOF!* it felt... welcomingly hostile... as much as i know how life is..uh.. was i talk to people here... i am kind of intimidated i have a feeling the city will eat me alive if i give it the chance...and is it me or is this ciry food messing my previously healthy un-poisoned stomach?

and i think it has been 3 or 4 weeks since i last grabbed a pencil and drew something... i am in panick thinking i may be going rusty... i want to go home >___> tomorrow they should be delivering matresses to our home... there will be nothing other than those matresses, one big television, my bro's XBOX, a phone and hopefully wireless internet(PLEEAAASSSEEEEE???) ...its going to be fun

anyways enough ranting... i just felt like calling in... i dont normally like to rant like this im sorry...

lets have an actual talk what did you do during the summer guys? : D did you have fun?
as for soemthing positive i have a new story in mind... ahh planning stages are beautiful

i felt like rambling... i love ho journals are the perfct combination between screaming out and letting it all out and keeping it in perfect secrecy.... im not expecting much people to give a damn only my friends... right?

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hi guys : D finally got a moment to spare and put up another journal.... last one is ooooldd hell half the country cant even remember the swine flu probabbly....

first i want to apologize for all the late replys and all of those deviations and journals i know i havent commented on im so sorry..... there are 144 un-commented deviations in my inbox and im so overwhelmed... and a lot of journals stacked in there too.... time just flies by and before i notice there is more in my plate than i can eat ): like in a brazillian restaurant where you forgot to flip your card haha.....(does somebody know what im talking about?)i dont know what to do.... is it humanely possible for me to comment on all of them? D:
i have been pretty absent lately.... i have been in very intense working sessions ... yes the artists at the ready stuff (among other things)... i should have really started sooner... or worked faster anyways i barely made the deadline... i was up untill 5:00 am getting everything done and sending in every thing.... i watched the sun rise... it is pretty : D but thankfully i made it before the deadline and i have 64 chances in almost 500...
im hoping to make it in as much as im expecting not to make it in so its all good... but do wish me luck please!

****EDIT****
ATR: i did not make it it.... .____.
i am...dumbfounded... i could start pouring my thoughts here but i think it would just result in a big BAAAWWWWWW that nor you care about nor i would want to see later on but damn.... i was starting to get my hopes up.... oh well.... saves me from a bunch of trouble i guess....

soooooooo.... summertime! the time where we finally get that precous time to relax and do whatever we want without school/work/etc getting in our way. summertime is where most of the good memories happen dont you think?.... awesome things are more likely to happen during long breaks where our time is completely ours to do whatever we want with it family vacations... big parties or friends travels... summer loving... so for the sake of chit chatting let me ask you
what would be one of your most precious summertime memories?
that memory that makes you think ''yeahh... that (travel/time/hangover/scolding/ time in prision/etc) was so worth it'' and makes you long for the next summer break hoping that you will have the chance to live something that awesome again.
and oviously tell me what you plan to do during the summer : D
me well im hoping i get to se my friends from the next city ... and hopefully spend the summer with my my friends from guadalajara before i move there... (yep... it happened but its all good) just because aint there nothing than a beach town, a car , and best friends combined

well enough rambles for the day... im sitting on the floor... back against the door and its starting to hurt a little... damn internet wants me to boil out here.... i'll go see what folks are up to downstairs... see if i can find people to play rummy : D i half suck at it but its antertaining.

byyeeee my friends

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hello im writing a new journal! in this my (apparently) last day of quarantine... i could begin to rant on how this whole swine flu (wich had its name changed so people wouldn not think it caame from porks) business is driving me rabid but no need for that... quarantine is almost over lets just leave it all behind by the way this last week would add up to the previous 3 weeks of strike making a grand total of ONE MONTH! wich i believe is more than i have been going to school... hahah! but those three weeks of strike we WILL have to make up for leading us to having LESS vacations... now this is one semester i wont be forgetting...

moving on ... lets talk guys i kind of need to talk about this with folks and im not though enough to talk it with my friends offline and im tired of keeping it like it was a top state secret...
mom says we are probabbly going to move back to my hometown and my moms ''robabblys'' are normally ''start getting used to it'' so whats de deal isnt that great? i mean yeah! but its strange... its not untill i realize that im leaving that i realize that im actually starting to like it here... and just now when i was finally starting to make friends and feeling settled in... why i do get a little bit of deja vu... not to mention that i will have to change school... even though there is the same school and the same carreer there... its in no way the same...i mean me i barely know enough to say im not ignorant... this school is new we are the first generation (and i will miss being the first generation) professors are just getting the hang of things. school there is probabbly not like that and i get the feeling that the guys there do know what they are doing.... its strange but im kind of scared the city will kind of eat me alive... i talk to my friends who live there and through them i can feel this kind of chronical stress thats pretty overwhelming. and i will leave my friendships and highschoolness halfway done... when we first moven in HERE it was my bro who had to leave junior high at his second year and had to try to just jump in on a train that was already running do you get what im saying? ... now its me... i guess it was my turn to take one for the team...
but its not all bad i have been thinking this through and thought about the pros and cons and im having a case of a lot of little pros vs a couple of BIG cons... and its pertty even. i will miss the sea...and being able to watch the stars at night like you have no idea... but i will get to see my friends again... and all the cool stuff goes to the big city. concerts, shows, expositions... i can meet more people with my same interests and goals and other stuff of that kind... and i have come to the point where im good with whatever happens and i have grown to the idea of leaving my home of 5 years...i think but honestly just because im not fighting the idea anymore its likely not to happen

i have started posting again as you can see : D i fnally found myself a scanner and i have a good load of work so i should keep the posts comming

by the way i apologize for all the late replys lately... you see ever since i came back from vacations my inbox is pretty much exploding... you guys DO wait till i leave to start posting stuff dont you? >:U

i have 95 deviations waiting for me right now i should get to it...

i dont really know what else to say i dont have something in particular to ask... i just felt like reporting in after not putting up a journal in a long time... of course i want to talk to you guys if you feel like saying anything do im always up for conversation :V

soo that would be about it for this time thanks for reading friends :3 i love you

club...s?
another club i have forgotten to send a note to join

HOLY LONG ENTRY BATMAN

spring fever indeed...
hi guys journal time i was trying to draw but somehow i just cant focus... not knowing that the past ancient journal was still around... besides i have been sick... first weekend i spend at home in a long time and im sick... great... wich begs the question
do you think physicall illness afects your mind's power? being that everything but your head hurts?...
can you draw while you are sick? do you let the bad state of your body interfere with the power of your mind? do you know that if everyhting hurts you probabbly wont do anything good with your hands and just push it aside?

anyways its march! time for spring and spring means change and renewal! change is something we live with every day... the change of morning to midday and night, your clothes, the change of seasons,etc ect its something that is just normal but then there are some other changes that arent as normal and are way harder to accept, a change of job, moving to a different house, to a different city, your favorite restaurant or your everyday store not being there anymore,... stuff like that we kinda dont like so much... it is a very natural reaction of us humans to fear and dislike those kind of changes... even if we know that moving away may be good for us, changing jobs can earn us more money and maybe eating somewhere else wont be that bad. yet the natural reaction to dislike change is still there...
how do you handle change? not minor regular changes but BIG important changes

and what is all this talk about change? well i have been going through a little bit of change... and there may be big changes to come... but i cant really talk about that in a way that makes sense :V

i have been drawing folks! and im currently in the process of hunting myself an installation disk for a scanner that has been winking at me for a really long time now

untill that happens i dont know if i will be posting aything... besides im keeping my promise to myself that i wouldnt post anything untill i finnished that comic... but honeslty its a pretty stupid promise...

that in case my friends care... have you read this far? : D you are my friend

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dammit there so many things i wanted to write down and i forgot all of them ):